Monthly Archives: July 2007

A Taoist Dilemma

Over some cabbage roll and peach juice, I asked a sage, “Taoism teaches me to accept everyone and cast aside my purist ways. Yet how can I do this if it’s in my nature to refuse to accept people’s flaws? I must accept myself as I accept others”.

He told me, “If you are happy with yourself and the decisions you make, then there is nothing to worry about”.

Then he took my bowl, washed it, and we played Warcraft III for eleven straight hours.

Interpol and Cat Power

I gasped when I found out that Interpol was coming out with a new album. Then I threw up a little in my mouth when I heard the first single.

Why, Interpol, why? What happened to the minimalist, sparse guitar riffs? Why did you have to sell out with lighter, more accessible music?

Turn On The Bright Lights remains one of the most mysteriously affecting albums of my life. Antics was crap. Our Love To Admire is worse. Interpol needs a return to form.

Oh yes, and I’m in love with Cat Power. Not from her new stuff, which I find pretty boring (her material was a lot more interesting when she was a drunk), but from the way she dances in the Cross Bones Style video.

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And while it doesn’t exactly make me go out and buy Kleenex at Costco, it does make me rub against the corners of walls and door frames in a felonious manner.

Don’t worry, Mel der Maur, no one will ever replace you.

Pat Doesn't Need Me

Sometimes I feel like I don’t offer anything to Pat. I call him for advice all the time, ask him to give me rides (groceries, furniture, large items on which he bargains), vent to him. He grew up relying on nobody but himself, so he never asks me for any favours, and I suppose he has Jen with whom to express his feelings.

Maybe this is the root of my insecurity. Pat’s friendship with me appears diluted. We’d both take a bullet for our friends, but mine is a far more exclusive club than his.

Pat doesn’t need me.

But I need him.

An Emotional Day, Reminding Me

Today I woke up and felt uneasy, reminding me that I’m human.

Tonight I read that People who lived through Yenan remembered seeing caves in valleys crammed with people, “many of whom had gone mad. Some were laughing wildly, some crying” and I felt disillusioned, reminding me that human comprehension is limited by the human mind.

Tonight she put her hands on another man, I was summarily dismissed from the group, and it made me jealous, reminding me that I’m alive.

Tonight I sat on a rickety wooden bench and fingered the yin-yang engraved in the middle, reminding me that it’s all part of the Way.