this is my happy face

All i want to write about late­ly is sun­sets and awk­ward hugs and redis­cov­er­ing coconut mac­a­roons and under­wear and sec­ondish chances and grow­ing old and jus­tice and my new aware­ness of food indus­try issues and the smell of out­doors no mat­ter what the sea­son and want­i­ng to see Germany and my new Magic decks and that last date and how hard it is to do Street Fighter IV com­bos and pic­tures like this

golden girl

and not hav­ing to wear a coat any­more and hand­shakes after real­ly close games and peo­ple being nice to me and feel­ing more com­fort­able with barre chords and what Geneviève wears and Breaking Bad and Nick Drake’s life and root beer floats and the sound of a melod­i­ca and pret­ty cats and open­ing boost­ers and the lux­u­ry of say­ing no and how weird it feels to dri­ve some­where in your PJs and intro­duc­ing oth­ers to that aloe drink and the same old mem­o­ries that I still cher­ish and mini-Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups and walk­ing base­lines and being sur­round­ed by such good peo­ple and hav­ing a PS3 and the time com­plex­i­ty of sort­ing algo­rithms and won­der­ing if it’s too late to call and how excit­ed Ryan gets when I vis­it and the songs I want to write and my mem­o­ries of America and scent­ed oils from the Body Shop and choco­late beers and the image of a gauzy dress in the sun.


  1. I don’t know what it is about sun soaked pho­tos but they make me feel like a con­tent­ed 5 year old feel­ing total­ly safe rid­ing the sub­way for that brief moment when it goes above ground and the sun fills the car and every­thing is warm and my knees are pulled up close to my chest and my head it reast­ing on the win­dow and my smile is wide and unabashed.

  2. This is how life should be. Like .…bao, like all the full­ness of boun­ty.

  3. What a glo­ri­ous day that was. I can look at this pic­ture and pre­tend I’m warm. Ever since, the sun has been deceiv­ing me, call­ing me out­side where the cold wind lies in ambush.

  4. That’s not fair. You always get all the good stuff.

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