Monthly Archives: September 2004

It's a D/s Life: A Cautionary Note

Sometimes I have to take a step back, and look at things as I did for the first time. I have to keep in mind that one of the most impor­tant aspects of this lifestyle is con­sent. That power flows from the bot­tom up, not the top down.

That I shouldn’t over­step my bound­aries. That in time, more trust will develop, and the rela­tion­ship will grow, and the bound­aries will extend. That with this comes inti­macy, strength, and pos­si­bly love.

That even with all the respon­si­bil­ity, trust, and faith I’ve been given, I must retain my humil­ity. That power does not need to be exerted to be felt.

That I had none of this, and have been given everything.

You Don't Know Me

On a day-to-day basis at work I have to deal with a mul­ti­tude of con­tacts from all sorts of busi­nesses, such as print­ing com­pa­nies, media com­pa­nies, survey/research com­pa­nies, phone/internet providers, mag­a­zines, tech sup­port depart­ments, mar­ket­ing com­pa­nies, and tons of other ran­dom oper­a­tions either try­ing to get my busi­ness or required by me for a product/service. At the begin­ning of every phone call, every sin­gle per­son I deal with asks me how I’m doing. It’s become a chal­lenge not to shout into the receiver, “YOU DON’T KNOW ME. DO YOU REALLY CARE? I’M A LITTLE WORRIED CAUSE IT BURNS WHEN I PEE! DID YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW THAT?!!”, every time I hear the cookie-cutter ques­tion. The worst is when I have to call some­one sev­eral times in a day to fol­low up on some­thing, and I’m greeted with the same ques­tion every time, as if my com­pany might have been built on a fault line that some­how sep­a­rated between 10:00 and 10:15.

I know that ask­ing is a polite thing to do, and it’s polite of me to ask in return, but it’s extremely dif­fi­cult for me to say things that I don’t really mean. I gen­er­ally only ask my friends how they’re doing, and I cer­tainly only tell my friends how I’m actu­ally doing.

I sup­pose it’s all just a haz­ard of the job. One day, for one of the less friendly, more aggres­sive, rudely patron­iz­ing, dread­fully unim­por­tant calls (such as one I got the other day from a com­pany sell­ing solu­tions for high search engine rank­ings), I’ll go on about some make-believe prob­lem I’m hav­ing. It’ll be inter­est­ing to see how long they can stay on the line, how much the busi­ness worth to them.

Gillette MACH3 Razor with 2 Cartridges


  • Gillette MACH3 Razor and 2 Cartridges
  • Triple-blade shav­ing sys­tem with an advanced indi­ca­tor lubri­cat­ing strip
  • Razor fea­tures ergonomic han­dle; 3 blades grad­u­ally extend closer to beard, less reshav­ing is required
  • The indi­ca­tor lubri­cat­ing strip has a blue stripe that fades away when blade is no longer optimum*
  • Each blade has a patented DLC com­fort edge to glide effort­lessly across face

*Note: Does not apply to Chinese males with sissy facial hair. Please use eight to twelve months as a gen­eral guide­line for replac­ing dull blades.

It's a D/s Life: A Beginning

I haven’t writ­ten a con­tem­pla­tion entry in ages. Things have been pushed aside to make way for new explo­ration and comprehension.

For so long, I’ve tried to wait before writ­ing about this. My inex­pe­ri­ence, and pos­si­bly even inse­cu­ri­ties, have caused me to approach this sub­ject slowly and care­fully. Every day a new idea, a new under­stand­ing, a new emo­tion, a new strength. I’ve felt as if I’ve known so lit­tle, but am now begin­ning to make progress in my learn­ing, am now begin­ning to under­stand the immen­sity of this lifestyle.

Now, there are now too many thoughts to go with­out record, and I must write.

The IT Budget Just Got Bigger

I was given the oppor­tu­nity to pur­chase a new machine (with my choice of parts) at work and put it together from scratch, some­thing I had never done before. I’ve dab­bled in cases ever since I played games (the dri­ving force behind much of my com­puter knowl­edge), but never actu­ally assem­bled an entire box from parts.

It’s amaz­ing to see how far along moth­er­boards, and even cases, have come now. Overclocking can be done through soft­ware, as opposed to open­ing the case and fid­dling with jumpers. Fan speed is auto­mat­i­cally con­trolled for a bal­ance of silence and cool­ing. Rail mounted drive bays make hard­ware con­fig­u­ra­tions much sim­pler. Thumbscrews elim­i­nate the need for screw­drivers for a sim­ple dust­ing. Firewire ports, eth­er­net con­nec­tions, video sup­port, even 5.1 sur­round are all built onboard, for the option of extremely clean, roomy, and cool cases, even if they are rather simple.

I man­aged to put the sys­tem together with­out hav­ing to re-seat a card, clean a con­nec­tion, or wig­gle a power cable. My machine is now a P4 3.2E (I sup­pose all higher end Pentium chips now auto­mat­i­cally come with hyper-threading), with a gig of DDR RAM, a 200 GB serial-ATA HDD, and a 128 MB ATI 800XT Pro video card. I also requested another 17″ flat panel, and received it the next day, so I can take advan­tage of the dual dis­play goodness.

Work was good, but now it’s just bet­ter.