Plus ça change, plus c’est la même chose.
I barely stayed for two hours. It wasn’t the game (though it did prove to be as frustratingly random as I remember it) or the people (who were quite nice and refreshingly intelligent). When I told Jess, she said, “But it’s so early.” I just shrugged my shoulders. As an introvert, she understood.
Sometimes I wonder if I come off as an extremely anti-social person. I tend to be the first one to leave parties, and sometimes so early that the host will ask me if everything is alright. When it comes to being around people, I’m definitely a high-maintenance person. I’m much happier in one-on-one situations, and even more often I prefer being alone.
As much as I’ve grown and changed, I’ve always needed the world in small doses.
I’m happier around people, but I realised that in all my actions in trying to understand and work the social scenes, I have become very anti-social. It’s come to the point where most people cannot understand no interpret my actions anymore.
It’s a painful curse. Some days I wish I can do better without being with people.
I think I’ve met someone like you before. Even in his clique, he doesn’t quite fit in. His actions are very random and they don’t follow the social norms at all. It makes him come off as anti-social, but I think he just over-analyzes every situation and reaction to the point where he doesn’t know how to act anymore.
However, I don’t think he’s conscious of this, whereas you are.
I must admit, I’m the same way. Everyone may think I’m anti-social, but I just think that everyone else is high maintenance.
I find that people are generally easy-going, but maybe that’s just because relatively speaking I’m so high-maintenance that people always seem to be catering to me instead of the other way around.
I don’t recommend supporting being antisocial for positioning onesself for later life. I have come to that decision begrudgingly however. I find I can “perform” well enough in social circumstances even with high level types of people, but I can only keep it up for a couple of hours and then I want to murder them all. It’s hard hard work for me.
The reason I don’t recommend getting too comfortable with being alone is that when you are older, alone is TRULY alone, and it becomes a physical liability. People do really need each other in later life to be safe, cared for, and for mental stability.
I think I know what you mean; the only time I can’t stand being alone is when I’m sick, and I imagine that I’ll be sick quite often when I’m older.
Socializing always seems more appealing/rewarding to me in theory than in practice
I’m much like you in the way where I feel more comfortable and prefer the company of just one other individual, rather than socializing in a group of people… I think I can only happily handle socializing (going out, partying, etc.) in very small doses… usually after a few hours out I’m already dying to go home, shower, spin, watch some tv and relax
Then you’re an introvert like me; we get over-stimulated easily from being around other people. I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels like that, because it seems like everyone else loves hanging out for hours and I end up feeling awkward when I leave early.