Letting Go of Bronwen

Bronwen start­ed dat­ing anoth­er guy.

It’s fun­ny, my first reac­tion is to think anoth­er guy, as if we’re still dat­ing our­selves. I sup­pose our rela­tion­ship has nev­er been con­ven­tion­al, but that’s what makes it so spe­cial. We still spend our week­ends togeth­er. We still talk on the phone for hours with­out actu­al­ly talk­ing. We’re close enough that I’m com­plete­ly com­fort­able around her, enough for me to let my guard to go down.

It’s made me real­ize how pro­tec­tive I still am of her, how upset I’ll be if she gets hurt. I think of all the things I could have done bet­ter, and hope this guy can treat her bet­ter than I did.

I have all these mixed feel­ings about it though. I’m wor­ried that I may lose my friend, but I’m glad there’s some­one to make her hap­py. In the end, I know I can’t be self­ish. Letting go of her the first time was hard enough.

Doing it again does­n’t make it any eas­i­er.

2 comments

  1. let­ting go takes time. we might have let the per­son go, but that does­n’t mean we let go of all our emo­tion­al attach­ments towards that per­son. it does take time.

    feel­ing this way does­n’t make us bad. it just makes us human. being vul­ner­a­ble and all.

  2. You’re absolute­ly right. Even when you let go, it does­n’t change the fact that there were great mem­o­ries and expe­ri­ences shared, and to be had.

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