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No, I did­n’t learn this mean­ing of the word from grade school, or even from the ebon­ics primer at Dolemite Dot Com.

(Actually, I learned it from 2Pac’s Life Goes On)

Yeah.

I only recent­ly had a mod­ern day poseur point­ed out to me. This isn’t the same as an intel­lec­tu­al poseur, this is the poseur of per­son­al­i­ty. The one’s who want to be quirky, eccen­tric, dif­fer­ent.

At first, I did­n’t notice; I was just annoyed. Then Loo’s per­spi­cac­i­ty put a name to it. I can’t stop catch­ing oth­ers now. I find that the one dis­tin­guish­ing behav­ior is the over-state­ment of char­ac­ter traits they wish to have, such as, “I did this fun­ny thing because I want you to see me in a cer­tain way, and by telling you this, I will make you believe that I am who I want you to believe”. Or “I like this song too₀ I lis­ten to any­thing because I have wide­ly vary­ing tastes!”. Over-state­ment such as this may or may not be based on some kind of inse­cu­ri­ty; some do it to hide because they’re uncom­fort­able with them­selves, oth­ers just want to be mem­o­rable and only end up being remem­bered for the wrong rea­sons.

Sometimes it’s even worse on blogs, where peo­ple write one line posts that don’t say any­thing because they think they’re cool and cryp­tic and that peo­ple are inter­est­ed in what they have to say. Or oth­ers who post con­ver­sa­tions, and expect every­one else to under­stand or appre­ci­ate the humour behind them. Or even peo­ple who actu­al­ly write about how they’re fuck­ing INTELLIGENT, or GRAMMAR FREAKS, or ATTRACTIVE. Why the fuck do you need to state it? LET THE WORDS SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES. The key to writ­ing is to SAY not TELL. Telling an audi­ence how some­one is feel­ing is nowhere near as effec­tive as describ­ing direct actions/thoughts/reactions relat­ed to those emo­tions with­out actu­al­ly stat­ing the emo­tions them­selves.

In the end, it all makes me even more zeal­ous about being hum­ble, unassertive. I’ve always been one to “speak soft­ly and car­ry a big stick”, as Teddy once put it. There are tons of great sur­pris­es when one does­n’t present all of one­self from the start. And after all, when one is revealed as a true self that does­n’t match the false image that’s pro­ject­ed on oth­ers, one ends up being a pho­ny.

And I fuck­ing hate phoneys.

6 comments

  1. ::holds up her fist in that “right on brotha, keep it real” sor­ta man­ner::

  2. *laugh­es at first com­ment*
    I think the inter­net is like the teen years of a per­son­’s life: melo­dra­mat­ic, naive, syco­phan­tic, and wor­ri­some. Like each gen­er­a­tion, it repeats itself while adding its own fla­vor.

  3. Oh geez. I real­ly don’t care for the cryp­tic one-lin­er blog entries. I dis­like when I do it myself, but most of the time I try not to be cryp­tic or pro­vide a link or have it be very close to the con­text of a recent post.

    There’s a girl on LJ that has a whole jour­nal of just one lin­ers and high-qual­i­ty art­sy pho­tographs of her­self. She is a pret­ty girl, but I don’t under­stand how peo­ple can fawn over her when her LJ is so ran­dom.

    I used to mar­vel over all the young girls on the inter­net with their col­lec­tives and blogs and their beau­ti­ful image mapped lay­outs. Then I real­ized their sites had lit­tle to no con­tent and were just pret­ty things to look at.

    I can’t stand how peo­ple write about being awe­some and actu­al­ly be seri­ous in any sense, either. Unless it’s me writ­ing, then it’s ok…cause I’m a REAL eccen­tric, god­damit!!

  4. Woah. Best com­ments. EVAR.

    Especially, “Like each gen­er­a­tion, it repeats itself while adding its own fla­vor.”

  5. hmmm.…sounds pret­ty pompous for a hum­ble guy like your­self.…

  6. Care to explain your com­ment, daniel?

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