There’s nothing in this world you can’t turn into heroin.
—Get Him to the Greek
At our last draft, Steph asked me what was new. It was weeks since we played, but nothing came to mind, and it felt strange to have no updates at all. It was only a few months ago that things fell apart. Things had been changing quickly ever since.
And then, all of a sudden, stability.
Meanwhile, I’ve picked up an obsession with sorting my Magic cards. Darren came by a few weeks ago and he gave me his collection, which we both started around high-school. I have about 8000 cards now, ordered by rarity, colour, block, and alphabetically, which took me the greater part of a week. There’s no denying how satisfying it is to have a neat and organized set, where I can quickly find a card instead of going through random handfuls.
I also started watching Cops, seasons 20–24, non-stop. A strange addiction1 for a reality TV show that’s no doubt biased in favour of law enforcement and against low-income citizens, but not glorified with a narrator, a soundtrack, or any monetary incentives. After watching the same episodes a few times, I feel like I have some intimate insight into the people who choose to break the law, and those who make careers out of stopping them.
They’re signs that I’m a glutton now, having to lose myself in something, whether it’s being productive or social or happy.
Love used to be my drug of choice, but nowadays it’s anything I can get.
- I used to see an episode here and there when I was a kid, but it was never with any frequency, and I haven’t seen one in years. I have no idea why I find it so fascinating now. [↩]
I think a better way to put it is, you’re addicted to life and all the things you can do with it.
After all, that’s the reason you’re here, sampling everything, good and bad, that life has to offer?
I’m not so sure it’s taking advantage of what life has to offer; I think it’s more like I need something to keep myself occupied. And as long as I’m happy, the reasons don’t matter.
Productive & Social & Happy Gluttony = Solution to human existence pretty much. Nothing wrong with that. Unless you’re past those things and want to work toward Buddhahood. : )
Two things must ye know about “COPS” shows.
1) There are plenty more criminals you will never see, because they are more dangerous than these; 2) Criminals who end up getting caught are, more often than not, not so much the worst of our society, but rather just the dumbest. Our jails are not just the worst, but the stupidest of the worst.
I’ll never understand why guys like watching it. Husb loves it.
I’m not sure I can explain the appeal of Cops either. I think part of me enjoys it cause there are so many bad things in the news, and in Cops it’s usually a happy ending or a good-guy-overcomes-bad-guy kind of thing. It’s a reality show that doesn’t make me want to put an axe through the TV, cause it’s the only one where stupid people don’t get away with doing stupid things.
Also, the little messages they have throughout bring meaning to the war being fought on the streets. I tried to watch a “best of” episode, a montage of all the juiciest action through 700 episodes, but there was no explanation or debriefing at the end of each sequence, and it came out as senseless violence that I could only stomach for a few minutes.
Hmmmmm that’s possible he sees it in that Superhero way, maybe you’re right.
I just see it as a bunch of trailerpark trash I don’t even want to listen to! X P
Life is more filling. Rarely see the word used in a positive manner. I’m glad. :)
Fascinations are what make us feel alive.
I don’t know what makes me feel alive anymore. I just know what makes me happy. Perhaps those are related though.
Out of curiosity, have you ever heard of the Cantonese slang that’s the title of this entry? Apparently, in originated from Hong Kong.
I think there’s a slight difference between being happy and feeling alive. Being happy is more superficial.
Yep. Zhui Long literally means following (or chase after) a queue. The Chinese dragon (long) is shaped like a queue. I guess it’s related to the traditional way of taking heroin.