Ever do something really stupid? Like, something just plain rude or mean. And then feel totally bad about it, even though it was such a small thing and the person probably understands why it was done. And then not be able to think about anything else except for regretting it. I hate when that happens.
Yearly Archives: 2004
Tremblant '04
Got back from Tremblant today. A bunch of us rented a cabin for the weekend about ten minutes away from the mountain. I went snowboarding, or rather attempted to snowboard, on Saturday. There was a heavy fog at the top of the mountain and visibility was extremely limited, although the temperature hovered around a pleasant ‑5°C, a far cry from the ‑46°C from last year. I’ve definitely improved over the last time that I went, although I still can’t carve on the toe side. Every inch of my body is stiff now, from my neck to my ankles, but it was worth it.
We stopped by a little hill made for snow tubing on the way home. It only cost $17 to use the facilities for four hours, and there’s even a conveyor system to drag the inner tubes to the top so people don’t have to walk up, the ultimate in lazy recreation. The hill was divided into eight lanes, each with it’s own characteristic bumps and jumps, and we tried to link up our tubes in various configurations such as multi-person daisy chains and leg locked lines. Possibly the best bang for the buck ever.
Amplitude
Sometimes it feels as if I’ve changed in an infinite number of directions. Every change comes as a result of some unsatisfactory characteristic of my former self. The result, hopefully a series of what I consider improvements, becomes the opposite of traits I once possessed.
Confidence is an example. It’s only now, after more than eight years of conscious work, that I’ve gained some form of confidence, of self-respect. And I appreciate it now, not only in myself but in other people as well. It was my own diffidence that drove me to become an assertive person. This isn’t to say that it’s something I’ve stopped working on. I’m not quite satisfied yet, because I’m still learning to prevent overconfidence, but other than that I think I’ve come quite far.
The same goes for quite a few other things. Having no friends has made me a better one. Being alone has made me a patient lover. Being shy has made me more outgoing. Having gone through emotional ups and downs has made me more stable.
Being weak has made me stronger.
Usually It's Dress Shirts And Sweaters
From one of my inside sources, I found out that the hiring freeze at the old government job might be on hiatus and they’re looking to fill some CS‑2 positions. Aaron and I contacted our old employers to get together for some lunch tomorrow, and they ended up making reservations for 14 at the Mayflower. Aaron and I both know that this could be an important lunch, so we’ll be putting on the preppy clothes. We actually had to discuss what we’d be wearing, since we dress so similarly.
These Long, Lonely Nights
I sleep with two pillows. The bigger, fluffier one goes under my head, and the smaller, less fluffier one I hug. I’ve been sleeping with two pillows longer than I can remember, and it’s become difficult to fall asleep with just one, which makes crashing at friends places and hotels a bit of a hassle. Sometimes I sleep on my side with the smaller pillow on my back and pretend I’m sleeping next to someone.










