Today was generally a shitty, low self-esteem day. I was left out or left behind three times. I needed some Anger Management, with a lot of my Fuck Off playlist to get through the day. Perhaps I’ll write a more heartening entry later tonight, after I’ve had a nice shower, a hot meal, and some Strongbow. My Fuck Off playlist is as follows.
- Coal Chamber — Sway
- Coal Chamber — Unspoiled
- Coal Chamber — Loco
- Coal Chamber — Oddity
- Korn — Reclaim My Place
- Korn — Justin
- Korn — Pretty
- Marilyn Manson —1996
- Marilyn Manson — Angel With the Scabbed Wings
- Marilyn Manson — Irresponsible Hate Anthem
- Marilyn Manson — Tourniquet
- Deftones — 7 Words
- Kittie — Brackish
- Slipknot — Wait and Bleed
- Godsmack — Whatever
- Refused — New Noise
- Deftones — My Own Summer (Shove It)
- Pantera — 5 Minutes Alone
- Tool — Jerk
- Fear Factory — Edgecrusher
- Marilyn Manson — The Reflecting God
- Tool — Hooker with a Penis
- Marilyn Manson — The Beautiful People
- Marilyn Manson — Mister Superstar
- Marilyn Manson — Dried Up, Tied, and Dead to the World
- Korn — Dead Bodies Everywhere
- Korn — It’s On!
- Korn — Got the Life
- Papa Roach — Last Resort
I took out Freak on a Leash because it just doesn’t have the hard hitting refrain that I need when I’m really pissed off, although I suppose the cadenza in the middle where Jonathan Davis goes crazy is some relief from people I just can’t seem to deal with.
So I got home, to an empty apartment, thank god, opened up a can of Strongbow, and started writing. It’s fairly rare that such a day happens, I’m glad to say, in contrast to other poeple I know, who happen to have bad days when they stub their toe, or when they get too many calls from their friends during the day. That just pisses me off. Blah, don’t get me started.