Amnesiac Epiphanies

It seems like every week­end I make plans, because I think “I haven’t seen this per­son in a while and I don’t know when I’ll have a chance to hang out with them again.” But it does­n’t seem to stop, because there’s always anoth­er per­son to see, anoth­er thing to do, and by the time I’ve caught up with the last friend, it’s been months since I saw the first friend again.

This is the first week­end that I’ve had free. I just played Black and White 2 for five hours, and it feels good, con­sid­er­ing that I haven’t real­ly played a game in a while, let alone be able to lose myself in one. It’s like I don’t get a chance to relax for more than 45 min­utes at a time before I’m off doing some­thing else.

A lot of my old­er co-work­ers tell me they don’t even have time to relax on the week­ends. It’s one of those things that comes with hav­ing kids, hav­ing a house, hav­ing a full-time job. Is this what being an adult is about? Not that I mind; for a while now, I’ve want­ed to be this busy so I could for­get about things, to move on.

And then, I real­ized that I have.

7 comments

  1. Watch out for B&W 2 man, that game will eat your free time whole.

    • That’s why I’m try­ing to fin­ish it as quick­ly as pos­si­ble. That way, I can move onto oth­er things!

  2. Being an adult means redefin­ing what it means to be an adult to you. People tend to think because they work and pay the bills, means that they have to act like every­one else.

    But that’s their def­i­n­i­tion, not yours.

    As long as you know what you want, as long as you can enjoy the road you walk on, it does­n’t mat­ter what you do with your free time or work time. It mat­ters that every­thing works out your way in the end. Which sounds like it has.

    • That’s true. As I find myself at this point in time, espe­cial­ly com­pared to some friends, it’s like I haven’t changed much in terms of my lifestyle since uni­ver­si­ty. I still enjoy (and do) much of the same things, and I real­ly can’t see that being any dif­fer­ent as I get old­er.

  3. Having des­per­ate­ly sought both the coun­ter­cul­ture and the nor­mal lifestyle (and ‘suc­ceed­ed’ at nei­ther real­ly), I would say that life only real­ly goes on the clock when you are hit by a) pro­vid­ing for a child or b) real­iz­ing you’ll be retir­ing soon.

    Until you’re doing either of those things, the best way to live life is to jam in as much amaz­ing stuff as pos­si­ble, both adven­tur­ous­ly active and con­tem­pla­tive­ly poet­ic. Then the oth­er stuff, when it hap­pens, is all a big busy blur. And while that will seem intense, it will in fact be intense­ly great. At least that’s my plan ;)

    • Uh oh! The ques­tion of kids is up in the air, and I don’t think I’ll ever retire. Work is some­thing that keeps me bal­anced. Maybe this means I’ll nev­er grow old. Although I already find that life is some­what of a blur, so per­haps I’m on may way there.

  4. Ack, I did­n’t know I was mak­ing a smi­ley face.

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