I feel so disconnected from the world lately. It’s not like I don’t have friends who care so much that they make me feel unworthy of the attention. I just don’t relate to anyone around me. People with their lives on rails when I feel as uncertain as ever. It’s like I haven’t joined their world yet, this world of stability and regularity, where everything just falls into place.
Do pixie cuts ever make up for smoker’s hands?
I watch the movies that used to stir the depths of my emotions, listen to the songs that would grab my heart and clench to the beat in hopes that I’ll feel something more than this. Every night, every snowfall, every photograph is telling me that something needs to change, and I’m left trying to figure out what or when or how it’s going to happen.
Wow. Same here, man. You’re not alone.
But it will pass, we will found our zen mood I guess. :)
I’m not sure it feels so zen to me…I imagine that if it was a zen mood, I wouldn’t feel like a change is needed. If you felt that way, would you even want the feeling to pass?
Why do you want a life on rails?
Aren’t you already in one?
I need a certain amount of stability to provide me with the foundation I need to do more exploring. I guess it’s somewhat ironic that I need a comfort zone in order to step out of it.
But it’s not like things aren’t stable at the moment. They’re just not stable enough.
It’s a very alien thought for me… and defies logic. I am pretty perplexed by the need for stability and repetitiveness and feels uncomfortable when repeating things. Sounds like something that requires further exploring and reflection.
I don’t think anyone who looks like they’re on the rails really has everything tucked in the windows. Somewhere there is always a loose caboose.
That’s a good point, and I do keep in mind that not everyone openly talks about their problems. You never know what’s really going on behind closed doors, so I try not to assume that everyone else is just happy and worry-free and so different from me.