Hi, and wel­come back to anoth­er episode of “Télévision Educative”. Tonight, I’ll show you how dreams are pre­pared. People think it’s a very sim­ple and easy process but it’s a bit more com­pli­cat­ed than that. As you can see, a very del­i­cate com­bi­na­tion of com­plex ingre­di­ents is the key. First, we put in some ran­dom thoughts. And then, we add a lit­tle bit of rem­i­nis­cences of the day…mixed with some mem­o­ries from the past.

I slept through the night. This means I’m either exhaust­ed or com­pla­cent. I’m not sure if I want com­pla­cent because it prob­a­bly means I’m resigned.

Resignation is so depress­ing. At the same time, it’s a cer­tain­ty that brings com­fort, the same way hope is both tor­tur­ous and inspir­ing.

“And work­ing is the best rem­e­dy, then? Keeps your brain busy.”

“How can you work? Love is too pow­er­ful. You can’t con­cen­trate.”

I’ve been work­ing the last two week­ends, try­ing to catch up on time I lost while I was away. I real­ly could­n’t afford to take so much leave from work with­out pay, and there are dead­lines for projects I’ve tak­en up on the side.

This week­end was espe­cial­ly pro­duc­tive. I got a lot done, but there’s so much more to go. It seems like there’s nev­er enough time, so I just keep my head down and work through it.

I haven’t had much a break since I’ve been back. So this is my break. The writ­ten word.

Feels like I’m sleep­walk­ing, lucid, unsure of what’s real or what I’m feel­ing. This morn­ing I asked myself, “Have I real­ly wok­en up yet?”