Be Still, My Heart

Muse side face

In the dark, our bodies fit like puzzle pieces — face in neck, crest in valley, curve in curve. I’m completely vulnerable when she lets me love her like this. She brings my guard down.

It’s the way she makes me happy without trying. The way I’m filled with tenderness every time I feel the warmth of her skin against mine. The way her existence gives me hope for the rest of the world.

If I chose to fall back on old habits and kept my distance to protect myself, I wouldn’t know this ineffable feeling. I may get hurt, but it’s worth every moment I can be next to her.

Maybe she’s right, and I’ll feel differently by the time it’s necessary. Until then, there’s no use in fighting it.

Not that I let myself fall for her.

My heart never gave me a choice.

3 comments

  1. I think I am in love with a man who thinks very much like you. Reading your words makes my heartbeat accelerate, knowing that you’re speaking words I’ve felt him saying to me with his eyes, with his delicate yet firm touch on my body, with his soft, wet kisses.

    He never had to think twice about whether or not to fall, the love was there the first time we kissed.

    He even cried, whispering, “I think I love you already,” the moment after our lips touched.

    I may get hurt, but it’s worth every moment I can be next to her. This is an amazing line that encapsulates how completely fallen you are, and how beautiful, and wonderful your love is for her. I wish you the best! I’d like to read more about this love very soon.

  2. You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back!

    Enjoy this time in your life….I’m happy for you!

  3. @Maeko — It’s always interesting to learn about other people’s experiences with love. I especially enjoy hearing about the kind of love that moves ebulliently, uncontrollable, which you seem to share with your partner. I wish you the best as well.

    @Lucy“You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back!” Your words are so true. If only you were here to tell me years ago. Thank you.

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