Be Still, My Heart

Muse side face

In the dark, our bod­ies fit like puz­zle pieces — face in neck, crest in val­ley, curve in curve. I’m com­pletely vul­ner­a­ble when she lets me love her like this. She brings my guard down.

It’s the way she makes me happy with­out try­ing. The way I’m filled with ten­der­ness every time I feel the warmth of her skin against mine. The way her exis­tence gives me hope for the rest of the world.

If I chose to fall back on old habits and kept my dis­tance to pro­tect myself, I wouldn’t know this inef­fa­ble feel­ing. I may get hurt, but it’s worth every moment I can be next to her.

Maybe she’s right, and I’ll feel dif­fer­ently by the time it’s nec­es­sary. Until then, there’s no use in fight­ing it.

Not that I let myself fall for her.

My heart never gave me a choice.


  1. I think I am in love with a man who thinks very much like you. Reading your words makes my heart­beat accel­er­ate, know­ing that you’re speak­ing words I’ve felt him say­ing to me with his eyes, with his del­i­cate yet firm touch on my body, with his soft, wet kisses.

    He never had to think twice about whether or not to fall, the love was there the first time we kissed.

    He even cried, whis­per­ing, “I think I love you already,” the moment after our lips touched.

    I may get hurt, but it’s worth every moment I can be next to her. This is an amaz­ing line that encap­su­lates how com­pletely fallen you are, and how beau­ti­ful, and won­der­ful your love is for her. I wish you the best! I’d like to read more about this love very soon.

  2. You never lose by lov­ing. You always lose by hold­ing back!

    Enjoy this time in your life.…I’m happy for you!

  3. @Maeko — It’s always inter­est­ing to learn about other people’s expe­ri­ences with love. I espe­cially enjoy hear­ing about the kind of love that moves ebul­liently, uncon­trol­lable, which you seem to share with your part­ner. I wish you the best as well.

    @Lucy“You never lose by lov­ing. You always lose by hold­ing back!” Your words are so true. If only you were here to tell me years ago. Thank you.

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