Without Bias And To Hold Nothing Back

Even after three years, it’s still strange when peo­ple e‑mail me, peo­ple I’ve nev­er met before who men­tion my expe­ri­ences and quote the words I’ve writ­ten. When they share a bit of their lives in return, per­haps from the guilt of find­ing them­selves the unas­sum­ing and unabashed voyeur, it nev­er ceas­es to be inter­est­ing. They’ll tell me of their pot smok­ing habits, rec­om­mend music that’s touched them in some way, talk about the abuse they suf­fered from their par­ents, share the kinky habits that are nor­mal­ly reserved for those with a phys­i­cal famil­iar­i­ty.

It’s strange because even with these details, I real­ly know noth­ing about these peo­ple, while they know some of the most inti­mate things about me, stuff that I hide from oth­ers in every­day life.

And the more I think about it, the more I real­ize that I’d rather not find out.

4 comments

  1. maybe He’s not look­ing for an exchange of “gory details” maybe He just wants to lib­er­ate His own thoughts and not have to take on the bur­den of every­one elses’?

  2. I know what you mean. I think it’s just human nature to try and take some­thing from our­selves and give to oth­ers, even if it makes no sense, or is for the wrong rea­sons (as in mak­ing them­selves feel bet­ter) it’s the whole “maybe i can help this per­son” ide­al.

    Thats just my two cents.

  3. Not exact­ly.

    There’s noth­ing wrong with the e‑mail cor­re­spon­dences, but I real­ized that the more I start­ed to learn about these mys­tery peo­ple, the more I kept them in mind when I was writ­ing.

    This means that I was begin­ning to con­sid­er an audi­ence, when the pur­pose of this site was to be able to write only for myself, with­out bias, and to hold noth­ing back. To do this, I have to for­get that any­one else may be read­ing. I’d just rather not know.

    I enjoy the inter­pre­ta­tions though. That’s why I used the title “Equivocality”.

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