Sometimes I hear some people described in a not-so-complimentary way. Some of the descriptions are much worse than others, but there are ones which always stick out in my mind. Things such as “creepy”, “ignorant”, “desperate”, “arrogant”, “obnoxious”, “unreliable”, or “ribald” are the last things I would want to be described as, and these have stuck with me ever since I gained cerebral consciousness.
However, I realized recently that it would bother me if someone thought of me as a person who fishes for compliments. I suppose that if there was some truth to this fact it wouldn’t bother me so much. Of course, I might in actuality be unaware of any false, insecure actions I may be performing, being a generally insecure person in the first place.
I’m not sure why something like this would bother me so much, as opposed to someone telling me that I’m untrustworthy. Of course, sometimes the fault of believing that someone is untrustworthy lies in as much as the faulter as the faultee. After all, a thief suspects a thief.
Perhaps people mistake my attempt at modesty as false modesty. Modesty is such an important thing for me that perhaps I over stress it and it ends up backfiring.
I guess the only way I’ll find out what I’m really like is if someone I trust were to tell me.