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Self-improve­ment has been a goal I set for myself for as long as I remem­ber, a sort of nev­er-end­ing quest that I hope to find ful­fill­ment in. It makes me hap­py to know that I have peo­ple to look up to, peo­ple my age whom I know. Being able to real­ize that even these peo­ple are human has helped me set more real­is­tic goals for myself, instead of some quixot­ic ideals I could nev­er hope to accom­plish. Not every­one is the same, of course, and while I may look up to one per­son for their morals, I may look up to some­one else for their con­fi­dence.

However, I judge how well I’m doing in my goals by com­par­ing myself to peo­ple with per­son­al­i­ties I can’t stand. I try to be as san­guine as pos­si­ble, sim­ply because I know some­one who brings down every­one he hangs around with. I try to be open to oth­er peo­ples opin­ions due to the fact that I know some­one who refus­es to accept any­thing but his own con­clu­sions, as open-mind­ed as those are. I try to have fun even when I’m los­ing a game, as dif­fi­cult as that may be for me some­times, because I know some­one who becomes angry when­ev­er they lose. I try to act affec­tion­ate­ly but appro­pri­ate­ly with peo­ple I’m involved with, sim­ply because I know peo­ple who are either too des­per­ate or too cold. I try to give as much space as is need­ed in my rela­tion­ships because I know peo­ple who are exceed­ing­ly high-main­te­nance.

Whenever I see peo­ple act the way they do, I try to find the good in them. Sometimes I find both good and bad, but I focus on the good, a thing which comes eas­i­ly to me, per­haps as a result of my zeal to become a bet­ter per­son.

Sometimes I find only bad, and it gives me more to work for.

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