April 18, 2009

Running Out Of Places To Hide

My fish is bulimic. He always stays at the bot­tom of his bowl. When I drop food pel­lets in the water, he swims towards the rip­ples, nib­bles on one, then spits it back out. Then he slowly floats to the bot­tom of the bowl again, rest­ing his fins flat on the pebbles.

Along with the first spi­der of the sea­son (which I killed tonight), spring has brought hope. For some rea­son, I think it’s going to be a good sum­mer. I can’t even explain why. Maybe I miss the heat, or I had good mem­o­ries of last sum­mer, or this is hap­pen­ing again1. I’ve been lis­ten­ing to the songs I dis­cov­ered last sum­mer in antic­i­pa­tion. Like this one, by Jenny Owen Youngs:

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Holy crap. Listening to this song now is…fucked. I always thought it was a good song, but never really related to the lyrics. Until now.

Due to the win­tery eco­nomic cli­mate2, they’ve lim­ited my hours at work. So much for keep­ing the brain busy; it appears that I’m run­ning out of places to hide3. While this came at a time when I really needed the money, I’m glad to have more free time now. It seems like every day I’m rush­ing to do this or that, with barely a chance to breathe, liv­ing to work, instead of work­ing to live. I’m won­der­ing if I can just stop, decide to live with some debt, and just relax.

This was the first night I had to myself, and it was only because other plans fell through. The only chance I had to relax was spend­ing an hour cus­tomiz­ing the icons on my new Mac Mini. Aside from a week­night here and there to catch up with John over some Warcraft 3, I haven’t actu­ally sat down to play a game in a long time. I’m hop­ing that at some point, I’ll be able to slow down and enjoy things again.

Although I’m not sure if I want that right now.

  1. Yes, I just ref­er­enced an entry I wrote six years ago. I tend to have a pho­to­graphic mem­ory for things I’ve writ­ten. []
  2. This term is stolen from an awe­some movie. High five and a cookie if you got the ref­er­ence. []
  3. This is totally a line from the Jenny Owen Youngs song too. YOU LIKE THAT. SHIT IS SO CASH. []
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May 1, 2005

I Tell Myself A Mortgage Is A Loan

Thumbnail: Money fold

I thought I knew what to expect finan­cially in own­ing a home. I was ready for mort­gage pay­ments, lawyers fees, gas bills, title insur­ance, land trans­fer tax (which is a sep­a­rate pay­ment from the name change fee), and any other ran­dom thing that may cost me money.

What I wasn’t ready for was the rapa­cious urge to pur­chase things. Things that cover win­dows, things that illu­mi­nate the cor­ners of rooms. Things that go in houses, things that look nice. Things to play, things that orga­nize other things.

So I spent some money. Got the living/dining room and two bed­rooms pro­fes­sion­ally painted. Bought a 53″ Widescreen HDTV Projection TV. Of course, I needed a pro­gres­sive scan DVD player to go with it (as well as com­pos­ite cables for that and the Gamecube, which cost more than the DVD player itself). I even bought four games — Paper Mario, Viewtiful Joe 2, Timesplitters: Future Perfect, and Pikmin 2 — so that I could take advan­tage of widescreen and pro­gres­sive scan sup­port. There were also a few costly trips to Ikea, Homesense, Home Depot for things like tables, bowls, king sized pil­lows, and Egyptian cot­ton pillowcases.

I’m in debt for the first (and hope­fully last) time in my life. I was up to seven grand at one point, but the smaller part of it (all on credit cards) was paid-off with the help of my last pay­cheque, and the larger half hap­pens to be interest-free. I have to men­tion, though, that a sig­nif­i­cant por­tion of what’s left has been reduced, to the gen­eros­ity of my par­ents. $2000 of it was towards a set of custom-sized mir­rored closet doors to be installed in my room and in the coat closet, and they decided to pay for them as a house­warm­ing gift. Pat also got me a bar­be­cue that fits per­fectly on my back patio, along with cover, cook­ing uten­sils, and wire-string brush.

My goal is to pay off the debt as soon as I can, and start putting 10% of my pay into a high-interest sav­ings account. I’d also like to save 2% of my annual salary for house repairs and upkeep, while look­ing into higher RRSP con­tri­bu­tions and pos­si­bly an extra mort­gage pay­ment by the end of the year.

This’ll be hard, how­ever, because I’m itch­ing for a new com­puter. I admit that I couldn’t help but take advan­tage of a great deal on Dell’s 19″ view­able flat panel mon­i­tors, so I bought two. Unfortunately, with a lap­top, I can only use one for the time being. I’ve been look­ing at the new P4 Extreme Edition proces­sors, which are dual core with hyper-threading on each that can sim­u­late four proces­sors. I’m try­ing to wait until the price drops a bit, see­ing as how one of these costs as much as an entire new sys­tem. Normally I wouldn’t even con­sider spend­ing so much on a CPU, but I can eas­ily jus­tify it with all the video encod­ing and photo manip­u­la­tion I’ve been doing lately. I’ll prob­a­bly be able to afford one by the time they become rea­son­ably priced.

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April 5, 2005

The House And Associated Promises

Thumbnail: Outside front of my house

So this is where I live now: an attached con­do­minium town­house. My unit is sec­ond from the right, and goes under­ground. The white win­dows fac­ing out on the main floor are part of the break­fast nook. There are still boxes every­where though, and it’ll take at least half a month to get every­thing cleared out.

It feels good to wake up in my own house, and as such, I now have to ful­fill all the promises I made to myself on the sat­is­fac­tion of such a condition.

  • I promise to floss every day.
  • I promise to vac­uum more often than I did before (how non-committal of me).
  • I promise to smoke less weed.
  • I promise to stop pour­ing cook­ing grease down the drain.
  • I promise to film Dolly run­ning her fat ass up the stairs (she never expe­ri­enced stairs until I moved).
  • I promise to walk more often than I ride the bus.
  • I promise to get my finances in order, which involves enter­ing all my incomes and expenses into Quicken XG then set­ting up (vir­tual) sav­ings accounts for retirement/emergency/pleasure spending.
  • I promise to keep my room spotless.
  • I promise to read more than I watch movies.
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