equivocality — Jeff Ngan's collection of thoughts, experiences, and projects, inspired by pretty much everything
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There’s some­thing very scary about “juice” you can buy today that won’t go bad until next year.

1 year, 6 months ago
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I can’t be the only per­son who thinks Scribblenauts was a great con­cept that was very, very poorly exe­cuted. #this­game­sucks

1 year, 6 months ago
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I don’t think I’ll ever get used to the whole “If it’s yel­low, let it mel­low” thing.

1 year, 6 months ago
17 Nov 11

a well-watered place

The fall is hold­ing out against the win­ter, trees clutch­ing bright leaves before the chill breaks their grips. It’s won­der­fully warm among such colours, and we walk in the val­leys of Appalachia to take in the smell of moun­tain air as rus­tic hands around us work live­stock and soil. In old Aramaic, Damascus means “a well-watered place”, a fit­ting name as the rain soon grows too heavy to be explor­ing the tiny town, pop­u­la­tion 981.

looking over a bridge

 

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Or the fact that I missed hang­ing out with @bonkand­beans, who tells me every­one got a free copy of Stranger Music in class tonight.

1 year, 6 months ago
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But it still didn’t make up for the fact that I had to miss my first lec­ture of “Leonard Cohen: The Early Rise of the Romantic Troubadour”.

1 year, 6 months ago
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The last thing I expected tonight was meet­ing Barbara Kingsolver, which is the first time I’ve ever met the author of a book I’ve read.

1 year, 6 months ago
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Ah, the token Asian guy who doesn’t get the white girl.

1 year, 6 months ago
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Watching Twilight. Why? So I can see Breaking Dawn in the­atres when it comes out next week and under­stand what’s hap­pen­ing. For serious.

1 year, 6 months ago
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Does this mean I have some kind of rep­u­ta­tion? http://t.co/95fyAZwu

1 year, 6 months ago
09 Nov 11

frame of mine

I’ve made peace with this body. It hasn’t been an easy peace to come by, as I seem to get con­stant reminders about the diminu­tive size of my stature. Most recently, I met an older Chinese woman who admit­ted that she thought I looked sick and weak only after she dis­cov­ered I had col­i­tis. It was as if she thought col­i­tis caused some kind of mal­nu­tri­tion that stunted my growth, and she didn’t want to bring up the fact that I was this size because it would have been too embar­rass­ing unless it was caused by a med­ical condition.

Asian male self portrait

 

I’ve been deal­ing with all kinds of sim­i­lar com­ments since I was a kid, so when a girl­friend would say that she liked a par­tic­u­lar part or por­tion of my body, I always thought they were just blinded by love. Eventually I real­ized that if they could come to love this body, then I could too. It will never look right in any­thing but slim-fit extra smalls from Mexx. It will never be good enough for my par­ents. But it will always be who I am, and I’ve learned to accept that.

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Two ant traps in the patient room at the walk-in clinic. This does not bode well.

1 year, 6 months ago
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Discovery of the year: http://t.co/9M944kfT

1 year, 6 months ago
04 Nov 11

some day i'm gonna find it out

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Over-stimulation is a sling­shot moved by the force of com­pany for the sake of self-distraction.

cat in window

 

And yet I’ve never felt so alone. The nights are filled with absence, which I try to mol­lify with indul­gence. It’s okay for now cause I know I’ll be okay some day, when it’ll be safe to be alone with my thoughts again.

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Wu Wei cur­rently in the top 5 themes for WordPress.com, approach­ing 600,000 users.

1 year, 6 months ago