Also, Lik-m-aid is the stupidest thing to eat over your keyboard. #hindsight2020

Also, Lik-m-aid is the stupidest thing to eat over your keyboard. #hindsight2020
Eating a Lik-m-aid while playing Command and Conquer. Something appears to be coming out of my ass too. Oh, it’s nostalgia.
Never in my life have I had more of an urge to buy clothes for my cat: http://j.mp/bHk5u3
As I was writing notes for therapy tomorrow1, I was doing some research on lifetraps and came across a short paragraph that cleared up everything for me to the point where I didn’t feel like I needed to keep my appointment. It was the answer I didn’t even know I was looking for.
Now the feeling of emptiness that’s followed me for so long is gone, and everything makes sense. I feel stable again, though there’s still a hint of doubt because I’ve been here before but it’s never been anything permanent.
I’m still going tomorrow so I can solidify my new-found understanding. I don’t think it’s going to be a regular thing again, I just need the bit of guidance he gives me that lets me fix myself. I can’t explain how good it felt to make the appointment, knowing I had someone with a professional education and years of experience in this to give me an objective view. My friends are always there to support me, but they don’t make sense of the world for me the way my therapist does.
Sometimes, when guests come over, I don’t wear my slippers. It sucks, but I don’t want them to feel less comfortable in my house than I am.
Spent over $1000 last week, and half of that was in 4TB of backup drives for video. This is why video production services cost what they do.
Like smoking, you can tell how addicted you are to the ukulele from how soon your first playing session is after you wake up.
One paragraph changed my life today.
Before getting on his train, Jason asked me if I was a hug-person. It was the right question, because I’m most assuredly a hug-person, and we embraced before he stepped out onto the platform.
We grew up at the same time in the same neighbourhood — a small suburb somewhere in the middle of the 500km that separates us — but never had a chance to meet until he gave a presentation in town for the HR Council for the Nonprofit Sector. Until now, we only communicated through blog comments and e-mail exchanges.
When I first met him, it struck me how much tall he was, and how much deeper his voice was than I expected.
Jason is like me in so many ways, something I find extremely rare. We share a strong self-awareness and a penchant for self-improvement, as well as the same views on love and tastes in women. Perhaps it could be said that Jason is an extroverted version of me. We could discuss things we normally reserve for our close friends, and continue as if we had already known each other’s stories for years. He’s a true kindred spirit, and many times I felt like believing in him meant I believed in myself as well.
Brunch was filled with such stimulation that I forgot to take a picture, so I settled for this one when I went to see him off at the train station. I’m so glad I was able to capture his perpetual smile, that same smile I see in his pictures when he traveling the world, in Budapest, Ghana, New Orleans, and other places with names too foreign for me to remember.
Is it strange that I find a small comfort in hearing my therapist say, “I look forward to seeing you”?
I love it when John admits that he’s wrong. It makes being right so much more satisfying. #haha
I’ve been living the strangest existence lately. It’s been a life without structure or meaning. I wonder what I’ll think of this phase of my life when I look back in five years.
Some days are easier than others. Sometimes, it’s a struggle just to find a reason to exist.
I have to admit that every pain, every sadness is inspiring. It may make my fingers bleed and my lungs ache, but the pure emotion that comes out of it is worth it, because that means I’m feeling something, instead of the numbness that scares me most.
My one mistake was trying to forget someone, when instead I should have been trying to forget life in general. I’ve always had the habit of thinking too much, and not doing enough. I’ve been trying to set goals to get somewhere, when it’s working toward those goals that’s the important part.
I made an appointment with my therapist again1, because something is definitely wrong with me right now. It feels like I have the world at my fingertips. I have so much time and opportunity on my side. I laugh at the right jokes. I dance at the right songs. It’s all staring me in the face, but everything still feels empty.
I’m not looking for answers. I just want to stop asking questions.
Just ordered a nice set of regular tuning and low-g tuning strings for the uke. #pimpmyukulele
Darren explained that without love, I don’t exist. #truth
Every story of cat torture I read makes me hug my Dolly a little tighter.