29: The Child

I turn 30 in 12 months.

But it doesn’t feel like I’m turn­ing 29 today. More like I’m turn­ing a-year-away-from-30. 29 has always been so incon­se­quen­tial. One step on a stair­case before set­ting foot on a landing.

Self portrait at 29

 

The thing is, I’m not sure what’s sup­posed to hap­pen when hit 30. I expect some­thing big, but I don’t know what exactly. Like I have yet to open my eyes to some­thing. Maybe because 30 has always been adult ter­ri­tory in my mind, not 18.

So if I still feel like I haven’t grown up yet, is some­thing going to hap­pen in this year? Something to make me feel like an adult by the time November 13 hits in 2010?

I turn 30 in 12 months, and I don’t know what to expect.

The Turning 30 Series

I’m hold­ing a Canon 5D mk.ii in my hands right now and IT’S MINE MUAHAHAHAHAH. FINALLY!!!

2 years, 3 months ago

I quite enjoy it when sales reps assume I know more about a cam­era than they do. Because its both rare that they assume so yet usu­ally true.

2 years, 3 months ago

Dan just called the end of my last rela­tion­ship a “mercy killing”. Laugh/cry?

2 years, 3 months ago

I’m now an appren­tice senior stu­dent in my Tai Chi class! If only I had a father who would be proud of such things.

2 years, 3 months ago

Two Messages

Only a few peo­ple know I have a fas­ci­na­tion with voices, dic­tion, and accents. It’s for this rea­son that I tend to save my voice mails. Well, that and the fact that they can be an inter­est­ing time stamp, because what’s said in them can offer such a tan­gen­tial view of your life. Here are two good ones in the past few weeks.

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The first is John, and now that he’s sin­gle, he’s avail­able1 on Saturday nights. I hap­pen to be both these things as well, though him much more recently, so hav­ing him approach me about my avail­abil­ity is awesome.

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The sec­ond is Heather, who has one of the nicest voices I’ve ever heard. It’s always soft and so sweet, with a slight tinge of raspy that gives it a bit of sex­i­ness. Though, as a very shy and mod­est per­son, she would prob­a­bly blush and smile if you ever told her.

  1. This term between us usu­ally refers to talk­ing on the phone, play­ing a game, and watch­ing a few videos. []

Cannot find the 8 legged bas­tard. Going to class and hop­ing he leaves on his own accord (and I rolled the win­dows down for him).

2 years, 3 months ago

Just had to drive 10 min­utes with a spi­der crawl­ing on the inside of my wind­shield towards me. An exer­cise in zen as I waited until stopped.

2 years, 3 months ago

Listening to new Magneta Lane, old Sera Cahoone, and new Thrice today. Also brought an extra change of under­wear. These are not unrelated.

2 years, 3 months ago

Buffalo buf­falo Buffalo buf­falo buf­falo buf­falo Buffalo buf­falo” is a gram­mat­i­cally cor­rect sen­tence. Your mind=blown. http://bit.ly/3hGPo3

2 years, 3 months ago

Wingman

A good wing­man says “no prob­lem bro” when you ask him to go with you, and takes it as an oppor­tu­nity to hang out.

He lis­tens and com­mis­er­ates and backs you up on your feel­ings when you’re catch­ing him up.

He even pays for din­ner when he’s the one doing you a favour.

He keeps a look­out in the sea of peo­ple so he can be aware of the sit­u­a­tion and warn you.

He stands fac­ing the door so you can have your back to it when talk­ing to him, and won’t be caught off guard.

He teases you about the cute ones, just like the good old days, when you went drink­ing in places too loud to talk.

He leads when you’re too ner­vous or self-conscious to do any­thing, and he fol­lows with­out ques­tion when you take action.

He has a great time, and thanks you for the night.

Shaved my face for the first time in about two weeks. So long that it seems strange to see myself *with­out* facial hair.

2 years, 3 months ago

Band of Horses is the new old Interpol (back when they just started). #iminlove #new­fu­ner­al­song

2 years, 3 months ago

RT @Causalien: Stay hun­gry stay fool­ish. Oh how I’ve for­got­ten this prin­ci­ple over the years. (So good, this is my first retweet)

2 years, 3 months ago

Just dropped $118 on four dress shirts, pants, and a sweater. Thank you insane Mexx sale and gift card for remind­ing me how fun shop­ping is.

2 years, 3 months ago