I turn 30 in 12 months.

But it doesn’t feel like I’m turn­ing 29 today. More like I’m turn­ing a-year-away-from-30. 29 has always been so incon­se­quen­tial. One step on a stair­case before set­ting foot on a landing.

Self portrait at 29

 

The thing is, I’m not sure what’s sup­posed to hap­pen when hit 30. I expect some­thing big, but I don’t know what exactly. Like I have yet to open my eyes to some­thing. Maybe because 30 has always been adult ter­ri­tory in my mind, not 18.

So if I still feel like I haven’t grown up yet, is some­thing going to hap­pen in this year? Something to make me feel like an adult by the time November 13 hits in 2010?

I turn 30 in 12 months, and I don’t know what to expect.

The Turning 30 Series