There’s so much to say, and not enough time to write. It’s obvious that I haven’t been sticking to any kind of posting schedule lately. The benefit is that I don’t feel the pressure of having to write something every day, the drawback being the fact that things I want to get down are often lost. When I do get a chance to write, it’s like I’m perpetually writing about thoughts, feelings, and events that are a month old.
I used to write my thoughts quite often. Things I had to figure out or get off my chest. Now, it’s mostly things that happen in my daily life, and something random here and there. It’s like I’m moving beyond my confused adolescence into some sort of reflective dotage.
The entries from the first year were written with so much more frequency — roughly three times a day. Then that changed to once a day, then every other day. A few times, I tried to write less frequently, without a set schedule, but that never really worked. The writing itch was always there. At one point I took a month-long hiatus.
Sometimes I don’t even know what I’m trying to say.
The thing I particularly miss are the entries written late at night. Spilling my soul out in words, with the music, the sky, and the empty streets guiding me. As tired as I would be (I swear, sometimes it was the exhaustion that brought it out in me), I always went to bed after feeling satisfied.
Now, I’m not sure what this all is.
Jeff,
i guess thats the thing with writing. There are times when you want to write the whole time, every free minute. You feel the need to express it all, to write down all these words, thoughts and feelings that you have inside at that particular moment. And then there are times, when you feel inside blank, when you are not satisfied with what you write, how you express. There are even times when you dont know what to write about. I am writing screenplays and my first novel and i know all these very well. But believe me, keep on writing, walk through this moments and you will see there will be a new energy for writing coming up.
And one thing you are right about, is the wonderful feeling to write in the night, when the streets are empty, everything is quite, the only sound of your music and all your thoughts coming through.
Dont give up writing
Greetings from Germany
Joern
Thanks Joern. I never believed that I’d give up writing, but that it’d just be something I didn’t feel like doing anymore. Who knows if that’ll ever happen though; inspiration never ceases.
I think it’s viral. it’s going around a lot of the blogs I read, mine included. I suppose it’s a natural development as you say. There’s been pent up stuff. When the pressure is released, the steam comes out less intensely.
This could be a good sign, in a way. You may have sorted out many of the confusions. I feel that you have learnt to shrug off remarks you don’t necessarily agree with, as opposed to reacting intensely, and I think that’s a sign of self-confidence too.
@Pearl — Maybe it’s a seasonal thing; I know a lot of bloggers go through their on and off times, usually depending on how nice the weather is. There’s much inspiration to be had (or lost) from the atmosphere.
@Uncle Joe — I haven’t really noticed that I’m shrugging off remarks I don’t agree with. I wonder if it’s due to confidence as you say, or due to a lack of patience, or something else I haven’t figured out yet.