I just want fucking makeouts

I drove home from class tonight with the win­dows down and the music cranked. It’s not the songs, it’s not the singing, it’s not the speed, it’s the air that affects you. That smell.

The Operation by Charlotte Gainsbourg is the ulti­mate night-time dri­ving track when you’re feel­ing sin­gle and elec­tri­fied.1 The base­line dri­ves you.

I had The Operation by Charlotte Gainsbourg play­ing here.

i want to explore you
i’m gonna get under your skin
so you can feel me run­ning through your veins

i want to exam­ine
every inch of your frame
the pres­sure points that cause your joy and pain

When I got home, I show­ered, got into in my PJs, took Dolly in my arms, and stood out on the patio. I want­ed her to feel what I was feel­ing under that night sky. She clung to my arms, but did­n’t make a sound. It was unlike her, because any time Dolly gets picked up she imme­di­ate­ly begins purring. The night was too much for her.

I think it’s too much for me some­times.

For now, I’ll live vic­ar­i­ous­ly through Maggie. Except I won’t be get­ting drunk on Sparks (the orange kind), I won’t be going danc­ing, I’ll just keep run­ning into my crush­es at every turn, and I’ll keep meet­ing the ass­hole, idiot guys they go out with. And like Maggie, I’ll refuse to be that guy. The one who talks shit about oth­er guys, the one who floss­es his cash mon­ey, the one who dri­ves fast to prove he’s got a dick.

Yes, I’m break­ing my post order because of Maggie. It’s like she made me write this. I would total­ly hoola­hoop and make Dragon Ball Z pos­es with her. I just found out that I don’t know how to spell hoola­hoop. Hula hoop. There we go.

Maybe this dry spell is mak­ing me loopy.

I think I’ll sleep with the win­dows open tonight.

  1. This song won’t be up for long; I’m tak­ing it down in a cou­ple days. []

5 comments

  1. I’m com­pelled to post with my LJ info since you inad­ver­tent­ly men­tioned it. !! At any rate, maybe it is me. My life explod­ed with ridicu­lous adven­tures after all that sad and qui­et shit. But I think the adven­tures are mere­ly the con­se­quence of the change in sea­son. It’s sup­pos­ed­ly going to be 26C here tomor­row. What more can I do but put on a t‑shirt and shorts and ride around on my bike eye­ing any­thing with a smile?

    the one who floss­es cash mon­ey” just makes me wan­na holler MO MONEY MO MONEY MO MONEY!

  2. that is an incred­i­ble song, and only the sec­ond one i’ve heard by char­lotte gains­bourg
    and for what­ev­er rea­son, your post reminds me of Jenny Owen Young’s “Fuck Was I” which i am cur­rent­ly lis­ten­ing to on auto-loop

  3. @Maggie — It was­n’t inad­ver­tent on my part; I total­ly stole your line and made it my title (although it’s prob­a­bly more cud­dles than make­outs). My life did­n’t explode after my last breakup, so it’s fun to hear about yours and how you’re get­ting out there. Then again, my breakup was when the sum­mer was end­ing.

    It’s awe­some how you’re post­ing so much now. I miss that sort of inspi­ra­tion, although I did get a rush of it after read­ing your entry.

    And oh yeah…

    MO MONEY MO MONEY MO MONEY

    @fathima — I rec­om­mend the whole album, it’s my cur­rent addic­tion. I am now lis­ten­ing to Fuck Was I on auto-loop as well. Thank you for intro­duc­ing me to this song (and artist). It’s so bit­ter­sweet.

  4. My par­tic­u­lar favorites are AF607105 and Beauty Mark right now. She’s very over­pre­cious on some, but it works on these.

  5. AF607105 is my favourite song off the album at the moment. There’s some­thing ghast­ly about it.

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