@Uncle Joe — I do feel a lot better than before. In my head I understand that all experience is “movement towards perfection”, but in my heart, it’s a lot more difficult to believe. As you say, it can definitely limit my creativity though. Perhaps it’s not moderation (or else I wouldn’t be seeing a therapist) but being able to control it that’s the key.

There’s a lot of important healthcare that’s covered by OHIP, but much of it is major stuff like surgery, as well check-ups. It’s mostly the bare essentials that we pay for, so the government thinks that if you there’s nothing terribly wrong with you, then you don’t need it.

@Causalien — I’m starting to view failure as being part of life and as necessary as success. In this way it could be paradoxically said that failure no longer exists, because it becomes a form of success. Either way, we’ve reached the same conclusion.

I view it more as: ” Try it, even if it’s just to experience failure in what you do.” After a while, it morphed into: “Failure = just another bug to be solved.” I think in my current state, failure no longer exists. I don’t go into anything with the definition of “what needs to happen” for it to be a failure. After a few minutes of thought, it seems like just another black and white that we human tried to define.

With the amount of tax you guys have to pay, these therapies are not covered by OHIP ? I would have thought OHIP would have covered at least a % of the cost.

and re: medical models – exactly.

Time definitely becomes significant when you reach the point of having to prioritize. Even then it shouldn’t matter though, because the attempt, the lessons learned, should still be worth failure. As Alfred Pennyworth said, “Why do we fall, sir? So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up.”

@Pearl — I’m not sure if I suppress any thoughts, although it’s probably called “sub-conscious” for a reason.

And the entire Western approach to medicine seems like it’s just putting out fires (as opposed to traditional Chinese medicine, which is preventative). It probably costs the healthcare system more in the long run.

I agree. it’s nuts what’s covered by OHIP. Counseling? Preventative dentistry? massage therapy? nope. Wait until physical crisis.

I actually like this one:
“One issue I had a hard time understanding was my belief that attempting something is a waste of time if I don’t succeed. ”

I started from the opposite of this philosophy and is slowly working towards this. Problem with attempting everything is that you don’t get time to practice what’s important. Eventually a choice needs to be made.