Needed day off. Hoping I'll be able to do something other than backing up old personal videos, and laundry, today. 3 hrs ago
09 Nov 07
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I’ve been in the strangest mood lately. Killing my Top Rated playlist everywhere I go, yet I skip through 90% of the songs, trying to find the right one. Talking to myself. Replaying conversations in my head.
I don’t quite feel at one with the Tao. I’ve been letting small things get to me. It’s as if I’m falling back into my old destructive habits, but upon realizing this, I fight against it. The struggle, when observed objectively, is quite amusing.
These are exciting times. Along with the excitement comes nervousness. It’s turned me into a jumble of emotions, bittersweet, and unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before.
Wish I could do something with this feeling.
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me too. prowly-growly.
>The struggle, when observed objectively, is quite amusing.
ain’t that the truth.
It’s a good time to take up physical trades to outlet emotion into motion.
Very good point. Unfortunately, my only outlet right now is Tai Chi, which is much more of a calming of the mind than a physical outlet. Methinks I should be doing more table tennis.
or chi gong. if I understand it right, it is somewhat like body building in the focus and tension put in areas of muscles as a fitness workout.
I have had one Tai Chi teacher who had a similar outlook to the push force being a muscular workout as well. I wish I had done it longer. I can’t remember which variant on form it was.
Tai Chi was useful for me for settling mind. I can remember body positions but not connecting motions.
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