I’m exhausted. It’s late. I should be going to bed, but I want to write. Here I am.
Vanilla chai, this time. I never drink this tea, so it seemed somewhat appropriate.
My limbs are sore. I’ve been practicing my Tai Chi on a regular basis, and my understanding has surpassed my physical ability. I’m starting to over-exert myself. I’ve also been using my arms instead of my whole body when advancing in single push hands, causing my arms to work more than they should. Tonight, it got to the point where they were completely weak. I suspect Elizabeth could feel this, and she switched arms before I had the good sense to do it myself.
It’s getting cold in the house1. The thermostat says 20, but it feels more like 18. I stood in the shower for a good 15 minutes, letting my skin burn under the hot water, to the point where I stepped out of the shower into the cold air and started to sweat.
No editing. No backtracking. Just type, and publish.
I happened to come across a video today by the Grass Roots.
When I think of all the worries people seem to find
And how they’re in a hurry to complicate their minds
By chasing after money and dreams that can’t come true
I’m glad that we are different, we’ve better things to do
The others plan their future, I’m busy loving youOne, two, three, four
Sha-la-la-la-la-la live for today.
Sha-la-la-la-la-la live for today.And don’t worry ’bout tomorrow, hey hey hey hey.
Maybe I’m just reading into it, like a born-again, but the lyrics struck me as very Taoist, and the idea of detachment in particular2. Darren jokes that I’ll start preaching to him the next time I visit him because our conversations always stray to Taoism.
I’ve been feeling decidedly dark, decidedly yin, lately. Not sad or upset, but in an energetic way. I’m bouncy. Maybe this is the way my brain adjusts to my previously cheerful upswing. The funny thing is that I’m no less cheerful, just in a different way. I feel more balanced. It’s as if the mind aches from some unknown force, expressed through an emotional state, yet relishes and wallows in this.
And I’m loving every minute of it.
64.4F?! Indoors? That’s freezing!
I leave the Therm off, also, either that, or keep it at 66.5F. Once the temp drops again I’ll keep it at 64 or less whilst slumbering at around 67 whilst awake.
We also buy firelogs.
If there’s one thing I wish my house had, it’s probably a fireplace. I’m not sure if I’d want a real one, or natural gas though. Probably a real one, because of the smell.
Live every day you’re alive, especially when super hot showers are involved. :)
I think it’s the super hot showers that let you know you’re alive. :)