• After his spring break trip to Mexico, John made a quick visit for the weekend, for a job interview downtown. If he finds an internship here for the summer, I will jump for joy.
• There’s a major deadline at work in two days. I’ve been working on this project for three months, and I think I’ll just make it (with some heavy overtime involved).
• Visits declined by 2/3 while I was on Hiatus.
• Due to time constraints, I’ve cut my table tennis practice attendance to once a week, and have been getting my ass appropriately handed to me in the league.
• Even though I’ve mostly been shooting with my thrifty fifty prime, my previous two dream lenses have been replaced by the recently announced 17–55mm f/2.8 IS coming out in May. Hopefully the reviews will be very good.
• Been listening to my playlists lately, instead of albums. Must be my emotions coming back to me.

We move in circles
Balanced all the while
On a gleaming razor’s edge

A perfect sphere
Colliding with our fate
This story ends where it began

—Dream Theater, Octavarium

Back to this.

So much has passed, yet nothing seems to have changed. I’ve never gone this long without writing an entry. For a while there, I didn’t mind. Didn’t mind not forcing myself to sit and write at every free moment. Didn’t mind my life not being taken over by this.

Now it feels like I’m in the middle of a transition. So much is happening around me, with so much to do, while my emotions remain neutral as if I don’t know what to think. There’s hasn’t been enough stability yet, or perhaps I haven’t been able to sit down to write and think about what’s going on. I’m ready now.

It’s been 33 days.

I definitely missed this.

Yup.

You can’t be a proper writer without a touch of madness, can you?

—Madeleine LeClerc, Quills

Has this become my only refuge?

No. Not even this.

Got a new pair of specs. I wanted either thicker rims, for a bolder look, or handles screwed into the glass without rims, for an even simpler look than what I have now. After trying on both styles, I decided on the thicker rims. Since these aren’t titanium, they’re several times heavier than my old pair, so I keep the old pair around for when I’m relaxing or doing sports. The funny thing is that this is one of the least expensive pairs of glasses I’ve ever purchased, yet they’re D&G made.