Ritual is my way of reconnecting with myself. Thr rituals may come and go as my life and circumstances change, but my need to create them is a constant.

I used to keep a litre of lactose-free milk in the fridge for my cat. ;o) I don’t drink milk due to the lactose and have lost my taste for it, but I’d buy it just for him.

but
otherwise
nothing anyone says can really prepare you for parenthood and the sacrifices you make
When u have kids, it is SOOOOOoo true, that your ‘life as u knew it’ gets put on HOLD for a few years
the years go by fast
and kids are amazing creatures, and there is just this unconditional love…going both ways
the love for a pet is similar to the unconditional; love u have for your child, only MUCH more intinsified, as this child is YOU, flesh, blood, characteristics, personality traits…its soo eiry..like watching yourself grow up.
So,
as a child that was abused, it is theraputic to be able to give my child what I lacked….safety, for one..

so, having kids is a HUGE sacrifice in your lifestyle, and it changes your list of priorities, but there are countless rewards…

I was upset the other day, my daughter noticed, she’s 2.5 now
she said: mommy why u sad?
I tried to explain..
then she said, Mommy I make you happy, and put her little arms around me and hugged me…
now, no matter how shitty anyone is feeling, when your innocent little child says that to you,
well, first of all, it melts your heart
and second of all, it helps put things into perspective
and it made me happy

noone is EVER READY to have kids..there is NEVER a GOOD time
but you need to be willing to take on the challenge/adventures, remembering it lasts a lifetime….. if the desire is there, then the changes in lifestyle become acceptable…for the short term

but, if you’re not willing to give up lots of little freedoms…
then just wait
otherwise everyone suffers

ahhh
the little rituals
puts some art into our lives
i love ‘em

cheers,
Amy