Deal

I’ve nev­er been against any form of (non-per­ma­nent) self-muti­la­tion, as long as it’s not con­sid­ered a solu­tion to a prob­lem. After all, some peo­ple watch TV to get their minds off things, oth­ers pull out carv­ing knives and make designs on their arms. Neither activ­i­ty actu­al­ly helps a sit­u­a­tion, but are just ways to deal with things that can’t be helped.

I always make sure that I don’t have any razor blades handy. I fig­ure that if it ever gets to the very rare point that I want to cut, I’ll be calm again by the time I go out and buy some, sort of like a cool-down peri­od for firearms.

I’m proud of the fact that I’m strong enough now to resist, that if I did have a pack handy, I would­n’t reach for it as a release.

2 comments

  1. http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=manly_suicide

    in light of your recent posts dear… check these out.. “how to kill your­self like a man” rat­ed by; 1)manliness
    2)style
    3)awesomeness
    4)mess

    that tub full of beans entry reminds me of those nasty beans you got at mon­tana’s steak­house ewwww

    hang in there dear.

  2. I know what you mean much bet­ter then I want to, I had a long time when noe craft or exac­to knifes were allowed in my apart­ment, for some­one who’s a graph­ic design­er and an artist, that was pret­ty dif­fi­cult, I uses those tools all the time in the office. I got real­ly good with scis­sors.

    Sometimes not hurt­ing myself is a seri­ous achiv­ment I feel very proud of.

    I have to say and I know that for some­one who nev­er hurt them­self that would­n’t make much sense, that the time I was a TV addict was way more self destruc­tive then the time I cut myself.

    Just cause someth­nig does­n’t leave scares, it does­n’t mean that you are left unharmed.

    (trip­ple neg­a­tive, I know I know…)

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