Yearly Archives: 2003

Cause You're Not Right

I hate it when peo­ple tell me what I should be like, espe­cial­ly if the per­son thinks they have the right to say some­thing just because they’re old­er than me. No I don’t need a bet­ter sense of direc­tion, no I don’t know what that word defen­es­trate is, no I don’t care who won the Battle of Antietam. I spend enough ener­gy try­ing to improve myself in ways which I deem are impor­tant now or in the future, I don’t need some­one else telling me to improve myself in ways they think are impor­tant. Unless I have a sol­id, well found­ed respect for some­one, I don’t give a fuck what they think peo­ple should be like.

A Trip To Beijing

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The first thing that I noticed when I arrived in Beijing were all the bikes. There are large, sep­a­rate bus lanes that peo­ple were using, even in weath­er close to freez­ing. One can tell that the peo­ple there grew up with bikes all their lives sim­ply from how com­fort­able they were rid­ing them. Some had large propane tanks or oil drums strapped to one side and did­n’t seem to notice. Friends will trav­el with the rid­ers by sit­ting on the back plat­form with their legs dan­gling out to one side, hands in their pock­ets, not need­ing to hold onto any­thing for sta­bil­i­ty. Some peo­ple have their busi­ness­es run from their bikes; a small cart is attached, an oil drum is placed inside, and a fire can be start­ed inside the oil drum to cook sweet pota­toes or chest­nuts. The ven­dors can ride around, and choose a bet­ter loca­tion when­ev­er busi­ness is slow at one.


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From what I can tell, Beijing is as devel­oped as Hong Kong, except it’s more dif­fuse. There are tiny back alleys and run down apart­ments next to fan­cy restau­rants. There’s quite a large gap between upper income and low­er income fam­i­lies. Just walk­ing off a bus at any tourist spot, one will be approached by hordes of ped­dlers, shout­ing at you to look at their hand held wares, such as cheap watch­es out of suit­cas­es, pressed flow­ers, or lit­tle dolls. They’ll fol­low you around, right back to a bus some­times, and try to get in the faces of every­one they can. One ped­dler was try­ing to sell things while her lit­tle boy was run­ning around, and she had to stop approach­ing peo­ple every now and then to make sure he was okay. It’s hard to imag­ine some­one stand­ing in one place all day, bare­ly mak­ing mon­ey from cheap, shit­ty items, but with no oth­er choice.

The peo­ple can be crude, but are friend­ly. Parks are very social, and peo­ple will gath­er there to play cards, sing songs togeth­er, prac­tice some danc­ing or Tai Chi, even play a few rack­et sports. Some old­er men like to prac­tice cal­lig­ra­phy on the ground, using big brush­es and a buck­et of water. The let­ters are large and beau­ti­ful, and in the win­ter, they freeze and begin to sparkle.


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Thumbnail: Forbidden City 1
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The entire Forbidden City is an amaz­ing piece of archi­tec­ture. Walking into it is like walk­ing into a cas­tle, due to the scale of the open areas and orna­men­ta­tion. One can def­i­nite­ly under­stand how an emper­or would have ruled from such a place when com­ing into the gigan­tic south­ern court­yard, where offi­cials had to walk through to brief him on the lat­est events.


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Thumbnail: Tienanmen Square 1

Right next to the Forbidden City is Tienanmen Square, where the pre­served body of Mao Tse Tung is stored. To vis­it the body, peo­ple line up around the square, some­times for more than an hour, to get a chance to see the leader of the Cultural Revolution. Loudspeakers pro­claim the rules for vis­it­ing, while troops with mega­phones are con­stant­ly telling the crowd how to line up cor­rect­ly. The square is extreme­ly busy with peo­ple walk­ing back and forth, a few of them fly­ing kites. It’s very heav­i­ly patrolled, and there just hap­pened to be a march­ing line of troops when I was there.


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Thumbnail: Great Wall Of China 1
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I hap­pened to vis­it one of the new­er parts of the Great Wall, which was only about 600–800 years old. The steps are of uneven height, and the sec­tion I climbed was very steep; just look­ing down was dizzy­ing. I thought that it was hard enough just going past a few watch­tow­ers, so I can’t even imag­ine what build­ing the entire thing would be like. I can’t def­i­nite­ly see the strate­gic advan­tage of such a wall though, since the view from only half-way up a moun­tain was amaz­ing.


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An inter­est­ing place I had a chance to vis­it was the 500 Lions Bridge (or Marco Polo Bridge). There are 500 lions on the bridge walls, look­ing inwards, each one dif­fer­ent from the next. It was the start­ing point of the first shots fired by the Japanese on July 7th, 1937, which led China into World War II. Most of the road has been refin­ished, although a sec­tion has been left untouched and one can see that the pave­ment has been so weath­ered that it’s dif­fi­cult to walk on.


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The Summer Palace (or the Garden of Nurtured Harmony in Chinese) is the place where the emper­or and his fam­i­ly could stay dur­ing the sum­mer, where it remains fair­ly cool. Even in the win­ter it looks beau­ti­ful, as all the water has turned to ice.


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Food Street is a huge row of ven­dors in down­town Beijing, sell­ing assort­ed types of foods, although most­ly meat. Each lit­tle busi­ness has two red lamps above their huts, and usu­al­ly con­sists of three employ­ees (one will do the shout­ing to attract cus­tomers, one will do the cook­ing, one will accept the mon­ey). The food is usu­al­ly on a kebab skew­er, and can be flame roast­ed or deep fried. As can be seen in the sec­ond pic­ture, there are prices for “Fried Silk-worm” (the brown, mag­got-like things sec­ond-left on the top row), “Dog-meat bunch”, and “Fresh-rab­bit bunch”, although there are things such as squid, locusts, and scor­pi­ons avail­able as well. Some of the ven­dors are Turkish, who mod­er­ate­ly speak Mandarin, and roll their tongues to stand out from the oth­er ven­dors. A pop­u­lar treat is the stick of fruit, which is slight­ly glazed like can­dy apples. Traditionally, it’s the Chinese date (the small, round, red fruit) that’s used, although peo­ple now use straw­ber­ries, kiwi, etc.


Being able to trav­el to a place so rich with his­to­ry was great. I’ve been to places such as Budapest, Sydney, and Banff before, but I bare­ly remem­ber any­thing about them. To be hon­est, I don’t care that I’ve for­got­ten almost every­thing about my pre­vi­ous trav­els because they were all mean­ing­less to me at the time. In this trip, how­ev­er, there was pur­pose, and I want­ed to learn about my his­to­ry, and how it has shaped my life today. It’s tak­en me a while to mature enough to appre­ci­ate his­to­ry and cul­ture of oth­er places, and if I were to trav­el back to a coun­try that I’ve been to before, I’m sure I’d see it in a dif­fer­ent light now.

The Self

I don’t know if you have ever observed this strange thing, the self. Often the more you look the more it does­n’t seem to be like it, and the more you look the more it isn’t it.

If you con­cen­trate on look­ing at your­self, you will find that your self will grad­u­al­ly sep­a­rate into many star­tling forms. So if I have to make a sum­ma­ry of myself, it ter­ri­fies me. I don’t know which of the many faces rep­re­sents me more and the more close­ly I look the clear­er the trans­for­ma­tions become, and final­ly only bewil­der­ment remains.

—nar­ra­tor, Soul Mountain

Out of the few things that I do well, it’s know­ing myself that I take the most pride in.

Or believ­ing that I know myself at least.

I often feel as if I know myself enough to under­stand the work­ings of my sub­con­scious. I think it’s ludi­crous when some­one tells me that they have me “fig­ured out” and this image they have of me isn’t the same as my own image of myself.

Yet how do I know which is cor­rect? As a human, one is nat­u­ral­ly biased when look­ing at any­thing, and when look­ing at one­self this bias becomes even worse. The most that one can do is rec­og­nize one’s bias, and present it so that oth­ers can under­stand the per­spec­tive of each opin­ion.

All that I can say for sure is that I will nev­er be cor­rect in what I think of myself. Everything that I speak about, when relat­ing to my per­son­al­i­ty, my ideas, my thoughts, my mind­set, might be total­ly wrong.

And know­ing this has become more impor­tant than know­ing myself.

Speaking Price

Bargaining (trans­lat­ed lit­er­al­ly as “speak price”) is com­mon at the small­er shops in Hong Kong. Prices are marked up actu­al­ly, because the pro­pri­etors know that peo­ple will try to bar­gain. I’m not very good at it myself, since I’m not con­fi­dent enough in my Cantonese. Lots of my fam­i­ly mem­bers are known to be extreme­ly good bar­gain­ers, each with their own unique style.

My dad is the “friend­ly” bar­gain­er, where he’ll try to get on the good side of the per­son try­ing to sell him things. He’ll say that he’s been giv­ing the store good busi­ness for years, and that he’ll get his friends to shop there as well if he can get a dis­count. One time he even got the price low­ered on a com­put­er he was about to pur­chase.

My moth­er is the “bluff” bar­gain­er. She’ll make a good guess as to how much an item cost the retail­er to pur­chase (with her life­time of shop­ping exper­tise), and ask for a lit­tle more than that price. The retail­er, bare­ly mak­ing any mon­ey from such a price, will no doubt ask for some­thing much high­er. My mom might budge a lit­tle, but not enough to make the retail­er hap­py, so she’ll start to walk away with an air of indif­fer­ence on her face (after all, this is Hong Kong, and if one can’t get some­thing for a low price at one store, one can walk two steps and have anoth­er shot at it). The retail­er will often chase her out to the street, and agree to her price.

My grand­moth­er was known as the “old per­son with no job” bar­gain­er. She could stay inside a store for more than half an hour, just try­ing to get some­one to agree to her price. She would ana­lyze all the vari­ables in an item, such as the make, qual­i­ty, dura­bil­i­ty, colour, neces­si­ty, etc. Then she would try to con­vince the retail­er that it’s only worth so much based on each vari­able, and stand rock sol­id on this price. Eventually, the store own­er would be so fed up with the every­thing that he or she would usu­al­ly agree just to get her out of the store.

One day I’m going to be the “dairy” bar­gain­er, and known as the per­son who tries to get dis­counts by offer­ing ice-cream and a cow.

The Crematorium

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I had the chance to vis­it the cre­ma­to­ri­um where the ash­es of my mater­nal grand­par­ents are stored. On look­ing out to one of the hills in the ceme­tery, one can see that it’s lit­er­al­ly cov­ered with graves. Burial is being replaced by cre­ma­tion nowa­days, due to the lengthy pro­ce­dure and high cost of main­tain­ing a grave. People have begun to accept cre­ma­tion more and more as a dig­ni­fied way to be pre­served. My grand­par­ents share the same tablet, which has gold­en let­ter­ing and is very respectable.

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When I was young, I looked up to my grand­fa­ther the most. He was the smartest per­son I knew, and taught me lots of lit­tle odds and ends. He was born and raised in China, and entered one of the few uni­ver­si­ties there after high school. Being able to attend uni­ver­si­ty was quite an accom­plish­ment back then, and he only had one year left before the civ­il war broke out. He joined the ill-fat­ed Nationalist side, where he would have had a chance at being a com­mis­sioned offi­cer had there not been a need for English speak­ing Chinese peo­ple. He spoke English flu­ent­ly, so he was used as a trans­la­tor for the British troops. He was shot in the arm once, which he recov­ered from, and fled to Hong Kong to avoid pros­e­cu­tion when the war was over. There he met and mar­ried my grand­moth­er, who was born and raised in Hong Kong, fled to Viet Nam dur­ing the Japanese inva­sion, but came back to Hong Kong once it was over. My grand­fa­ther assumed a career as a mete­o­rol­o­gist, and my grand­moth­er became a house­wife to three daugh­ters and one son. They both lived long in Hong Kong until they passed away.