I FOUND IT. I can’t believe I fucking found it. By the slimmest chance, I was able to search on the skimpiest lyrics (I could barely understand anything, the recording was so bad, so I went on “in all my dreams, I never thought I’d see”) and found a reference to it on a Portishead site. The thread had the title, Anger Management. A search for that ended up with an album by Nathaniel Merriweather called Lovage. It turns out that Nathaniel Merriweather is an alias for Dan the Automator, and the song on the album is called Anger Management. I was finally able to download an excellent quality recording of the song. I guess I should support the artist. I haven’t enjoyed a song this much since Dance of Eterniy by Dream Theater, which was in fucking first year. It feels like this is my new song, an underscore track to my next phase. I’m proud of myself for finding such a rare song, and it’s even rarer that I’m proud of myself.

Lyrics:

my inner demons compel me to be here
your cheeks are flush like rose petals
you’re consumed with rage but i’m consumed with you
our eyes intertwine through the haze
intoxicated by your bloodshot stare
in all of my dreams i never thought i’d see
a face that could launch a thousand ships
and the music was like wind in your hair
the moonlight caressed your silhouette
the kiss of ocean mist is in the air
why must god punish me this way
lay down my hand, the next move is yours
as you undress me with your frozen eyes
in all of my dreams i never thought i’d see
an endless love to share my blue lagoon
and the music was like wind in your hair
the moonlight caressed your silhouette
the kiss of ocean mist is in the air
why must god punish me this way
hapiness is hard to come by
but i’ve had my fair share
the satin sheets, the lemon peels
the minor keys, the major pills
we’ve climbed the mountain, saw the top
and planted the apple seed
and can’t you see we could’ve had it all
and the music was like wind in your hair
the moonlight caressed your silhouette
the kiss of ocean mist is in the air
why must god punish me this way
and the music was like wind in your hair
the moonlight caressed your silhouette
the kiss of ocean mist is in the air
why must god punish me this way
why must god punish me this way
this way, this way